I suffer from a unique form of perfectionism. 

Current life challenge

 Currently trying to help my Wife set up the apartment as if I wasn't here anymore. 

Not as fun as you'd think. 

I have but a few ace's up my sleeve...

 and I'm not calling them in. 

Maybe another life. 

 The last time I saw my friends and family will forever be yesterday.

Decades can go by, but for me, it's yesterday.

I don't feel the disconnect. 

You are always with me, I am always with you. 

Forgive me if you can. 

I thought it worked like that with everyone. 

Twilight

 Fell asleep in the desk chair,

over the side, with my arm on the recliner, but woke up quickly when Amy yelled my name. She scared the crap out of me. Apparently, she thought I was dead. Fair. I'm going to miss that woman when I'm gone

But it's better than missing her while I'm still here

It all seems a little too surreal...

Recognize...

 when you are in the presence of greatness. Let it soak in. 

Have Agency.

 Life is pretty simple. Be honest with yourself. You fucked up. Very few don't. Die the best person you can be. 

I find it necessary to remind people of this. 

Teamwork and friendship.

 If there is one thing I learned a long time ago, it's that if you can put a team together with great players, they will do well, but they will suffer losses.  If you put together a team of good players that are friends, those losses aren't suffered. Those wins aren't taken lightly. It's just a life experience you all are sharing in. 

One of these might be better. 

No matter what happens from here, I've won Life.

 What a shitty day. 

I hope yours was fantastic. 

The sweet spot

 There is nothing quite like being overrated and underrated.  It's perfect.

A thought

 Last night, I pulled out a Wisdom tooth. 

Nobody ever thought I made a good decision. 

What chance do I have now? 

I feel a little lost today.

Know what you are, when you look Judgement in the eye.

 It's like crossing a bridge, that's only there for me, but I can carry others across it. I've done it a few times. I know it won't be their forever, and I know why it won't be there when it's most needed.

Constants...

 are just the last thing you expect to change. 

It's a mythical thing that has been weaved into your belief of how things work, how things are. 

Constants are fluid. 

It soooo annoys me...

 that you ignore the other blogs and social media. 

This is a very large project.