Decisions Decisions

Health diary- again

 After months of feet and knee blowing up from a combination of leaky veins and arthritis, I can move a little. 

I can now jam my feet in my shoes when I wake up in the morning, as long as I don't get in the shower first, thanks to a new water pill.  I do what stretches I can and walk my 30 minutes, if you can call it walking. It's more like long pacing. I can't go outside because my back pain is fairly severe and I don't want to get too far from a place to sit down, and the water pill works very spontaneously.

This week labs and next week heart surgeon consultation, and rheumatologist.  I have high hopes for the rheumy, because if I can't move, I don't think I can improve my situation much. 

Wasn't that entertaining?

You have to remember, this is a well thought out comedy.

All Hallows Eve

 On this festive Halloween, I can only contribute the thought that I find the scariest in this realm of woo we live in. 

Nobody knows more than they believe.

Ghosts of ourselves

 Ghosts of ourselves

are we

the ghost of ourselves

remember when 

we could do what we can't anymore

was that us

that voice in our head

knowing what we did

trying to change the score

are we the ghost 

in the machine

who knows future and past

who changes present unseen

Was it Einstein who thought 

that we lived our lives

and died 

10000 years ago

but that life

is not gone

that same life 

goes on and on

something like that

and maybe 

we are ghosts of ourselves

we are our own subconscious 

the voice in our head, changing things where we can

editing our life

over and over again