Hope & some change

 To prove I don't deal with existential dread 24/7, here is a happy story about winning.

Yesterday, I went to a Dollar store & bought what appears to be a single use, one and done pizza cutter & an over the door coat hook. We got the last gold one & it matches our yellow and beige decor perfectly.

We used it 4 times already.

Tranquility

 

I'd been unhealthy 

For quite awhile 

It takes a toll

Your standards 

Get trampled 

It's hard to not be reliable

For loved ones

Or yourself

Nobody wants to

 be a burden 

It was a bad stretch 

And I walked slowly to bed

Cause slow was as fast

As I could go

And I stared at darkness for the longest time

Not sure I was breathing 

It was the most relaxing thing 

It felt like

If I closed my eyes

They would not open again 

So I got up

Wrote a little 

Listened to some music

And fell asleep

 when I didn't have that feeling 

It was peaceful

I had a little choice

Maybe I will choose different next time? 

Maybe next time

There's no choice at all

I don't know

I have loved ones

That I want to see 

And hear

And maybe I know something 

That can help them

Someday

I wish there was more

But hey

Everyone has problems 

Life 

Goes on

Thank you

For your time