draw m e the picture

of what the e nd looks like

not  how you wa nt it to be

this took fore er  to type

but i had to try

I've never been a professional artist. It's always been from my heart, not my pocketbook.

 That's not to say some folks in different countries didn't steal my shit. But I never made more than .39 cents. That won't even get you a snickers bar. and they suck since they put their version of "dark chocolate". on them   Idiots.    And I love actual dark chocolate candy.    That ain't it. 

Health report , more like a diary entry, not interesting

 Seems like every time I pull a tooth, I'm sick and messed up for a few weeks. I lost hearing in my right ear for a week, and then my left eye was having problems when I pulled a wisdom tooth.  That was just an example. Diseased teeth, probably need to start asking for an antibiotic when I think they are about to come out.    

Anyway, I've discovered neuropathy. Boy, new pain is just the bee's knee's.  My feet burn so bad now, I forgot my fingers have a lesser issue, but it's still there. I'm moving around finally, so I decided to do dishes.   Amy had asked me if I need hot, or cold, to help with this.  

So I plunged my hands into the sink to wash dishes. Without the screaming and swearing, let me just say hot water was not the way to go.  My feet were killing me, and when my hands went in the hot water, I forgot I had feet. 

I'm not diabetic. I'm used to pain. New pain takes awhile to get used to, to understand how it works. Hell, I'm basically numb from the armpits to my knees. Brain is very alive. It's almost like the body has prioritized that. Quite the blessing. Hope I have my wits about me enough to take full advantage of that. 

I didn't explain that well. 

Honest competition.

 I never rooted against an opponent. 

Never. 

The best thing about the internet

 ...is that damn near anyone can type something that helps you. Something profound, to your particular situation.  It can be funny, it can be sad, it can be absurd.  But, if it clicks for you and helps you, it may as well be Hemmingway. 

Funny thing, I bet Hemmingway would love that. 

I hope I've left a few that help someone else get through the day. 

It's the only thing that matters. 

 I suffer from a unique form of perfectionism. 

Current life challenge

 Currently trying to help my Wife set up the apartment as if I wasn't here anymore. 

Not as fun as you'd think.