to be honest

To be honest....all these people staying at home in our apartment complex is cramping my style. I used to wake up, look out the window, and the parking lot was empty. I could turn up the music, the wife and I could have loud sex and there were no worries. Now the parking lot is full every day....I am hearing things I don't want to hear and it kills the mood. This is an introverts way of saying " Get Off My Metaphorical Lawn". I thought I found a place in the hierarchy that nothing would really mess with my way of life. What a bummer. Are people getting sick?

Subject to interpretation

I have roamed this United States, laying roots and pulling them up several times. Repeatedly defying conventional thought on how our life should be. Spreading Chaos for some, but just trying to survive. I wish the best for all.  I know who I want to be with, and I know where I want to die. I know the music I want to be playing. I know who and what I loved, and who I did not.   And I know what I want to be remembered for.   I know what I did wrong.   I know what I would correct, and what I would not- and what I could not.

I hope, when it is my time to go, I have had the time to process and regurgitate what I see in my mind , so you can see it to.  I like it here, in my mind.  Beautiful place, I promise.

If I knew I had 2 months to live, I would write every breathing moment until the end. The last breath , the last typo. 

Fuck you grammar Natzis.   If you know what the writer means, the communication is made.   Assholes. Only Witches have to have it perfect.

Remember, pushing the enter key is the loudest noise you can possibly make. 

Random Monologue...perhaps a soliloquy ...or maybe just a footnote...isn't this whole thing a soliloquy ?

I know a great deal about me. It took years of study to pull this off. I went through a long stretch where I did not know me at all.

People do not seem to understand this concept. The world would be a better place if more people knew themselves. We seem to allow ourselves to be pigeon holed.  Make a few changes to yourself, and others go nuts.

The End ish

 ...there are a hundred or so drafts that were never posted, that need tended to. 

I TOLD YOU THIS WAS A EFFING COMEDY !!!

The Feeling is Mutual...

 ...is what it says on my imaginary T-shirt.

It's probably not true, of course.

Funny thing. The less you have, the more others try to tell you what's best for you

 On the hunt for a new pair of size 12, 4E  shoes for 5 to 10 bucks. Preferably with velcro.

Not as easy as you would think. 

They are for emergency use if my foot blows up again. It's a clown shoe compared to my normal size. I go cheap because it's possible I will need to cut the toe out and take out the insole.

#TMI