Dream

 Noticing things

 putting it together

watching it unravel

chasing a ball of string....

Noticing things I wasn't supposed to

Happy New Years. Twenty twenty won.

 I could fall asleep right now

At 4 pm

And wake up and sleep 

A few more times

And when I look at the Happy New Years messages 

on my phone at midnight 

(If there are any)

In my head 

It will be January 4th already

Everybody has their own sense of time. I've been asked how long I lived somewhere, and my answer was One and a half bags of coffee filters. 

Happy New Year

To remain unfinished , added to as I wish

 Just found out that needle point and quilting are not the same thing. 

Multitudes. 

I had a good idea a few hours ago. Forgot to write it down. 

It is gone, but the good ones come back stronger. 

Patience...is just a word, until it is everything. 

I feel as if I am asked to believe in facts 

I feel as if I am asked to believe in facts

I feel as if I am asked to believe in facts

as scientific stone turns to dust

If you spend more than you make All income is stimulus And the poverty industry Is too big to fail

tax collection Is stimuli for the government?

If you want to get back at the government, cash those stimulus checks and save it in a cookie jar.

Is the internet/cyberspace part of nature? Working on a modern transcendentalism bent...

It would be remiss if the influence over my life of Commander McBragg and Waldo Kitty were not duly noted.

Of the freedoms you have given up, which ones came back?

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Wife just yelled from the bedroom "do WE have any reason to go out today?" Meaning it's cold, & I will be venturing out on my own, if so desired and/or commanded, as the heater is turned up til I am melting, while the lady of the house is in short pants, drinking hot chocolate

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Working on my foraging skills. Found a granola bar in the couch that I had missed previously. Bring on the next phase of this dystopian now.

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Haven't you ever watched someone try to fail up?

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Currently considering adding a stealth second bathroom to our one bathroom apartment, but the negativity is really putting a damper on the creative focus.

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It is that time of year to figure out the New Years resolution. Maybe I will try to be better than I was yesterday. I am old. I don't necessarily remember the shit I pulled on any specific yesterday. I do remember some of the career highlights of shit I pulled on a lifetime of sundry yesterdays.

So I know my capabilities, and it is for the best to be better today than the yesterday that sticks in your mind.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, Ever'body.

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Before we went to Sam's, the wife had mentioned Nutty Bars are cheap by the box. We get home, and we forgot the wholesale nutty bars. 

At this point, I am Sam Kinison, screaming WOMAN, I CAN'T AFFORD CONVENIENCE STORE NUTTY BARS AGGGHHHH  AAAAGGGHHH   AAAAGGGGHHH

Maybe I will almond bark some shelled peanuts. I don't know. 

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assemble the pieces

 maybe it is time

There is much more, and less, here than meets the eye

I woke up yesterday feeling off, like something was going to happen. The swelling in my feet was manageable, but even though I had a decent sleep, I fell asleep again for a three hour nap. 

I still turned in early, and at one AM, got up and my ankles decided they did not want to support me in this endeavor. Hands and wrists, ankles, feet, legs and elbows swollen and hot. 

 I fell backward into bed, and asked the wife where my walker is at.  Fortunately, my hands were not as bad as my ankles. I did not even know I had this issue until my feet were on the floor. 

If I understand these things correctly, which I probably do not,  this is an autoimmune response that creates a cytokine storm that, in between pain hopping from joint to joint, and psoriasis popping up everywhere and feeling like it is eating my flesh,  it also puts me to sleep. 

The good wife helped me get my shoes and socks on, and I hobbled out to the car to double check if I could safely drive or not. Took me awhile to get there, but I can safely drive. 

  In our house, it is good to know if you need emergency transportation ahead of time. 

I tried to think of what I could have done to bring this on. I was already being careful and taking it easy because I have had various issues for months...years.   The only thing I did was....a small stretch for the back of my legs. 

It gets me every time.  Psoriatic arthritis is joints and connective tissues. I can't stretch when things are tight, or there is a price. It is usually an effing month of my life. But it feels so good to stretch...

We need to order the part for that extra wheelchair. The only thing I know about a random shit storm is there is always one coming. 

A spoonful of sugar

 The placebo works wonders.

Does it work backwards, as well?  If you were administered something harmless, but convinced it would have horrible effects, could you manifest that into reality?

Isn't this how life works?

Science...?

Hope & some change

 To prove I don't deal with existential dread 24/7, here is a happy story about winning.

Yesterday, I went to a Dollar store & bought what appears to be a single use, one and done pizza cutter & an over the door coat hook. We got the last gold one & it matches our yellow and beige decor perfectly.

We used it 4 times already.